Life is awesome!

Every once in a while in life I get overwhelmed with feelings of gratitude. The last couple of days have been full of those feelings.

And then I have moments like today when I want to pull my hair out because I just do not know what to do with this client. But that's another subject.

I'm just realizing that my life is really great right now. I mean, I have a good job where I actually make enough money to survive and am able to actually buy gifts for my friends and family when I feel like it and am able to make a dent into my debt. I have the most awesome career that is completely fulfilling (barring moments like the pull out my hair from today, but really, that is part of the fulfillment is figuring out the puzzles and overcoming barriers of difficulty...). I mean, seriously - my career is awesome. I have sessions when I just get to stinkin' play music with adorably cute kids, what the heck? And I have sessions when I walk away thinking, "That wisdom was in me??? I really helped that guy." It certainly helps your self esteem when your client tells you that you are really great at what you do and he is feeling better each week. And I have sessions where I just think back to all the progress that client has made in the last umpteen sessions and it just amazing to watch them grow. And at the end of the week, although I can just be exhausted from so many sessions, I think about how many different kinds of clients I have, and how different each of my sessions are. And it's awesome to see that shape up into what it is. And..how many other careers allow you to constantly be learning about all different kinds of people and tastes and musical styles. Never thought I'd have a cd of metal music, but hey, when you have clients who like that and listen to nothing but it and you are trying to write a metal song together, you kinda have to know what metal sounds like....And to top it all off, I actually feel like I'm good at what I do. I admit, I can flat out tell you when I'm completely out of my element. Like the aforementioned client that makes me want to pull my hair out. I can't do it all...imagine that. Oh...and, lately I feel like the quality of my voice is actually a little better. Weird. Guess singing all the time (and around other good musicians) will do that to you.

I also have a bazillion, seriously a bazillion, good, GOOD friends. You know, the first time I had just a really good friend, I thought, man I'm blessed to have such an awesome best friend. And then they just kept coming. Looked back into a journal entry a couple of years ago where I was like, man I'm lucky I have like 4 close, close friends. Now, I'm just...man I can't even count, because my friends are just awesome. I just said "man" uncharacteristically about five times in three sentences, oh joy. But it is true, I have a lot of good friends. You know that point where you move from being "friends" and spending time with someone to a person to a deeper level where you really see the person and feel like they see you, and you can truly tell your friend you love them, and nothing in the world could make you happier than to do whatever it takes to make them happy. I love that point and recently came to that point with a friend of mine, which helps me realize how blessed I am to have that kind of relationship with SO many people. And now I have that with someone locally. I've done nothing this week pretty much except work, sleep, and hang out with Serriah. And I love it.

Our bishopric of our ward issued a challenge to read the Book of Mormon again in a set amount of time. We began on Pioneer Day (July 24) and will finish by the next session of General Conference (October 3). It works out to be about 9 pages a day, approximately 20-30 minutes of reading/studying. We each received a fresh copy and we are marking it in two colors, red for passages about the Savior and the atonment, and blue for whatever has personal meaning to us in our lives at this time. Upon completion, we give that copy of the Book of Mormon to someone special to us who does not have one. I'm very excited about it, although it is a difficult thing to do. But the reason why I bring it up in the midst of all I am saying is that it also is blessing my life. As I'm putting forth a little more effort into studying the scriptures, it strengthens me spiritually, and I feel like I have energy even when I am not sleeping much.

I'm still single and would really like to know why guys don't go for me, but hey. Life is just generally pretty darn awesome.